I just wanna lay in bed. I just wanna lay in bed for the next few days until I’m ready, until I’m ready for this new chapter ahead of me. I know looking back isn’t healthy, I know constantly thinking about you is the worst thing I can do right now, but I honestly feel like reevaluating everything and letting all my feelings out is the best thing for me to do. I have to cry. I have to be sad. I have to be angry. I have to be this way because I can’t hold it in. I don’t want to be like this, but it’s the only comfort I can give to myself, it’s the only comfort that understands what I’m going through.
Whoever is reading this, if you have someone in your life, despite all the bad times, despite whatever situations you two have sometimes, if they love you and only you, if they care for you, if they give you unconditional love.. Please don’t mess that up. Please don’t do something that will ultimately question or break your relationship apart with that person. Don’t fuck up something so good.